HOPE

HOPE:


When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope 
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.
                                        
                               By Brian Quinn


Everyone needs encouragement sometimes. This is to all of us who could use a little hope with situations in our life. 

Fear of the unknown?!

I try to be very optimistic when it comes to love and finding love but sometimes I just don't know. I look at all my friends and almost all of us have yet to find the one. I wonder if its because of our race or not. I have plenty of  'white friends' that are married, engaged or happily in a relationship. My friends and I were having a very interesting conversation about who we think will be the first to be married. We have no clue since no one has even a potential boyfriend. Its sad actually that we are all college graduates (or about to be), smart, beautiful and have our lives together, yet its so hard to find the right guy. One of my friend is actually trying the online dating thing and it seems to be working out for her.
Don't get me wrong, I am no where near ready to be married. I am just getting my career established and would love to get my life together before I settle down with someone. However, I am not against finding someone and having a relationship. I do have issues of my own though. I just realized that I may have commitment issues. I am a hopeless romantic but afraid to commit. Yea I know It doesn't make sense but I am Simply Complicated. I love LOVE, falling in love, being romantic and all that mushy stuff but when I find a guy who I can be all that with, I freeze, and push them away. I don't get close. I have put my guard up so high and I am afraid to let it go. What do I fear? Being hurt. Why? I don't know. I loved a guy once and he hurt me. I have seen friends go through heartbreak after heartbreak. I do not want that! But does building this wall ultimately save me from hurting?
I am working on trying to change all that. I feel like I will be ready for love, ready to let my guard down after I  work on my trusting issues. I need to believe that not all guys that come to my life will hurt me. I need to be strong enough to risk being hurt if I want to find my Mr. Right one day. I can only pray for strength and guidance. I want to get married and have kids so I will have to get over it I guess. I want my own fairytale, like Cinderella or Sleeping beauty. I need to realize that everyone will cause me pain but I need to know who will be worth it. Once I know, I will find my fairytale and live happily ever after :) <3

All I know is when it comes to love, I am an island of great complexity.

To My Last Fling,

Yours Trully,
Simply Complicated

Love..This is how I feel

Your Attitude Determines How High You Can Fly

Happy New Year!
So I'm sitting on the couch watching the football game (Saints vs Seahawks to be exact), relaxing my feet from a long but good day at work, and my thoughts are just racing. This year is off to a great start. I left one job before the beginning of this year and I am so relieved I did. Lets just say the manager did not know what being professional means! Anyway, on NYE, a couple of my friends and I went to downtown Charlotte at this place called The Suite. It was a great way to relax and enjoy the night. We danced the night away and had lots of fun. I even got myself a number from a guy I will never call Lol but thats a whole other topic. I spend my first Sunday in Church and thats when I realized how blessed I am to be able to see another year. I came to a conclusion that this year I needed to be closer to God more than ever. I need that inner strength, that extra faith that only God can provide. As I am sitting here now, I realize that I am off to a great start. I am talking with God more often, reading my Bible a couple times a day, and practicing God's word through my actions.

Keep reading I'm getting to my point...I was surfing the internet and came across a very strong quote that made me think about life. I usually don't do the whole new year resolution thing but this quote will have to be my resolution for this year. The quote read "Your Attitude Determines How High You Can Fly".

I am going to start applying this quote with everything I do...my career, personal and spiritual journey. Think about it...Attitude means everything. If you walk around depressed, sad or thinking that you can't do something, chances are that you will be miserable but if you are optimistic, happy and positive, chances are your life will always come together. Trust me I'm a realist and I know I cant be happy and successful 100% of the time but I'm willing to overcome my lows with better attitude.

My attitude will determine how high I can fly..the sky is the limit...I foresee big things happening this year for me and I believe that 2011 will be my best year by far. I am starting to enjoy writing and I will post more blogs this year. I hope everyone who gets to read this is going to be blessed in mighty ways. Lets clasp our hands and Fly High!!!

I looked out the class room window

And into the sky

And saw a little bird

Flying high.

Fly high little bird

Fly High

With my hopes and dreams

Flying for eternity with the nigh

Let me spread my wings

Cuz it's up I go

Freedom ringing into my ears

Little Bird I've seen you before

With your grace and beauty

Reaching out for heaven

Only you can see

Taking your secrets of the world

And giving others reason to dream

So Fly High little Bird

Fly High